End…, and a Beginning

Well that time has come, I realized long ago that I no longer had a business as a commercial events guy. Now I am getting rid of thousands of slide that are no longer relevant. A sad drawn out affair, punching holes in work that I am very proud of. A testament to my lighting skill, the ability to capture a look or mood. Of hours spent try to capture those images, the setup time I had to invest, and tear down mode while starting to decompress from the stress of the shoot. Of the hours on the prowl for those spontaneous captures of relaxed guess enjoying the evening.

Once while I was scouting by the bar looking for my next shot, a guest remarked that I looked like was hunting. Yeah I replied, next to the feed trough, and the watering hole…, they all must come here. He looked sort of puzzled, then saw what I saw, the banquet table, and the bar. I’d spot a prey, and follow them back to the main herd where I was sure to get a good shot. Or the young teens I asked to take their photo, I got them all lineup, safety shot. Then I told them they looked like a bunch of granny’s posing…, that got them. As one they dropped into a Charlies Angels pose with finger-guns drawn.

For me it is the end of an era. Little time to look back at the fun I had, the people I played with. I’ll save that for the very last part of life when I no longer get to shoot. I turn to the arts, the erotic arts…, I am finally connecting to the right model’s. Women in their forties (40’s), women who have lived life with few, if any regrets. Coming in to work with me, to capture their personalities, and beauty. Not to say I will not work with younger models, but they do not interest me as much. I value those who are approaching forties (40’s), their special vulnerability that is part of their charm. Of that special character they have locked behind their eyes.

It is said that “the eyes are the window of the soul”. My wish is for them to open that window so I can reveal the enchanting creature I have glimpsed in that moment.

Afternoon at the Farm

 

I’ve been asked more than a few time if I worry about working with nude models alone. To tell the truth I have never given it much consideration because of the way I work my craft. I offer references, give the model a straight forward idea my style of work, now I give the access to my website so they can see what I shoot, and them what to expect. I am very welcoming to significant others check me and the studio out so that everyone is comfortable. I make it clear before any shoot happens that I expect to work with my model’s undivided attention.

For my part I am very respectful of the models rights, and my responsibility. When I work with a nude model I realize that their personal space is much more important for them. To date I have never had a model who even thought I have done anything in the least bit inappropriate. Once I had a younger model who I plan to work with at a friend’s farm. On the way over I told her that I wasn’t sure who else would be there, I assured her that she was not going to be put on any shows for anyone. That if worst came to worst we’d have the nice meal I had brought, and just call it a day. At the risk of being called paternalistic, I wanted her to feel at ease. That’s is the problem though, the same preparations I use to make my models comfortable, are the same tactics predators use to lull their victims into a false sense of security.

Then there is the matter of the release, I want my model or subject to see everything I have captured before they sign. I want for them to be comfortable with what we’ve gotten, after all we work in a collaborative manner. Many times I work without a release at all, preferring to be able to get in touch with the person, tell them what and were I want to use our image(s). Since I use real film this can get quite expensive, a few times the model decides to not sign. Those few times the whole shoot has been an expensive waste of resources. I can only use the images for display only, no sales are permitted, really that is fair. Now not everyone works as I do, my models work with the anticipation of sales to follow. My work is sold in galleries, or used in books, my website, or I donate it to various organizations that foster a positive sex culture.

Again not everyone works this way, but I feel very strongly about my images, and the way I work. I work very hard at my craft, I get some beautiful images in the pointillist manner. I am proud of my work, the people who chose to work with me…, how could I not take the steps necessary to make it a beautiful experience for all.